Monday, November 29, 2010

how far is too far?

So I have had a loved family member move on today, she was an amazing inspiration and great woman, at 102 she was still looking to get feisty and asked me every time I saw her, if there were any hot men outside and if I could bring her one in. I loved my great gram, and today she moved on, I am upset, of course, but I want to celebrate her life. I asked her advise on her 100th Birthday,

"Gram, Its beck, I want to know since your 100 this year and I am 25, what advise can you offer your great grandchild of with your 75 years experience on me?"
"you like to dance beck?"
"ya gram I love to dance!"
"well beck, you got a man?"
"no gram, why?"
"well ... get one.. and make sure that he can hold onto the tables, because you must always always dance on the tables!"

Best advise I ever got!

So the title of my post comes from my anger towards my extended family, people started posting on FACEBOOK this morning that gram had passes, FACEBOOK, for goodness sakes, gram has hardly had time to leave her body! So not only is this of horrible disrespect, that is how my sister found out that gram had passed. It disgusted me today to find this out about what I am supposed to be calling my family.

I am posting this here, because well, really only two of you read this anyhow, and I am sure since its all over the fricken Internet, you have heard by now, also neither of you knew gram, and well this is my place to vent which nobody knows about. :)

So have seriously been considering deleting my Facebook page, Its gone too far for people, this whole addiction to technology is too much. People don't even have face time with one another any longer, you go for dinner and its phone this and txt and tweet and status updates! where is our humanity going? seriously... out the freaking window. I smile at people while walking down the street, and it seems foreign to some people like I must be up to something because I am making eye contact.

Anyhow, if you find that one day you go to find me on FB and I am gone, its not because I have escaped, I may just be without a page. You can get me here or email me or call me.

Favorite quote for today "Friends are Gods way of apologizing for our families" Dr Wayne Dyer

Monday, November 1, 2010

blog posting and dinner!

Wow its been a couple days ( weeks ) ma bad! but I am inspiried tonight to voice a few things, I am sitting here eating my dinner and checking things out online, I have come across a couple of words online and they have prompted me to let you know where I am at.

So things have been good with me, I changed jobs and am working at a lighting and plumbing store selling products, its good I actually really like sales its fun, plus I am learning new things everyday which really is a huge part of me. I am high energy so I need the stimulus of learning all the time, otherwise I will just get board.

I have been doing things a bit differently in my world, I am not currently working with my life coach or trainer, My budget is allocated to other living expenses at the moment but I know that once I am making some coin and saving up a bit I will definitly have her back, but for now its good. I have been incorporating running and some work outs into my week. Also there are many things that I have learnt in the past 2 years with my life coach that I have been working on, I still read most mornings and journal and meditate. I have been processing the things that we talked about and the things I am implimenting in my daily routine.

I am currently reading Dr Wayne Dyer (love him) The Power of Intention, learning to co-create your world your way. So this is a great book, I was hearing a lot about intention and acting and speaking with intention... these words stuck in my head but I really didnt understand what that meant to do these things. I think that I have posted about it ealier, but this book is great, it really gets down and explains what it means. So one of the greatest things about intention is that everything is created twice, first as a thought... so I started to acknowledge and listen to the thoughts that were CONSTANTLY running through my head... they were just silly, I was worring about alllllll kinds of shit that had NOTHING to do with me. I was thinking about situations and problems that didnt even exist... what a waste of energy!

Not only was I thinking about usless shit, I was telling myself and surrounding myself with all kinds of horrible negative things. Hence it was the greatest thing to quit my job. Seriously..

Once I realized what my inner dialog was, I was able to know that if I could have these thoughts that I could just as easily have others... positive thoughts, thoughts of gratitude, love, kindness, creativity, beauty, abudance and expansion.

Being grateful for EVERYTHING, its all a gift, even if it sucks, we have all been there... something crappy has happened and at the time we are like SHIT>>> not cool.. but later sometimes even much later.. the thought comes to us ohhhhhhhhh I now see why the crappy thing happened.. and if it didn't I wouldn't be having this good thing happen now...

Being grateful for everything is just that. saying daily thanks for what the day has brought. you can thank God if that's what you want to call it, the universe, the source, the heavens, its all the same, its the higher energy that creates us with .. here it comes,, intention.... intention as explained in this book is like this... an apple seed is created with the intention to become a beautiful tree, which produces flowers, and more apples.. with more seeds full of intention to create more apples... the seed the tree nor the apple say... what do I do now? they don't say I'm not good enough to be the tree, the apple, the flower, it just knows.. we are all made from the same .... stuff,,, we are all created with intentions.

The way to tap into this is to do things like knowing that we are all connected, all of us, everything! what gets in the way is EGO.. ego says I am alone, I am different than you, I am not the same. YES YA ARE.. we are all souls and spirits... we are all part of a much much much --- larger abundant world.

I say thanks for things in my day that I would otherwise bitch about before, or never acknowledge... Like the rain or the wind, the sun coming through my window. the smile I received from the stranger. All of them are little blessings that should not go unacknowledged.

I am finding that with gratitude, I am able to practice the other things mentioned, Love, beauty, kindness, creativity, expansion, and abundance. actually is pretty easy once you learn gratitude, you then love everything because you know that its been brought to you because you are grateful for it, and then you find it beautiful, with that your creativity starts rolling, and when your on it like that your more likely to practice kindness to others, they cant piss you off your full of love beauty and creativity, with those ingredients brings expansion because you start to think outside the box, "wait I can do that, if I i don't know how now, I sure can learn how" constantly expand your limits.. then comes abundance... once you know you can learn and expand,, you also know that like your potential, everything in life is of abundance, like air... and space..

Light bulb... now its time to act on it... just reading about it, and thinking about it wont get it done, that the second creation,,, making it happen.... one step at a time if needed. I made a new rule in my life.. I must smile at EVERYONE I make eye contact with... funny how many people catch your eye. I smile all friggen day! whoop whoop

Nothing works unless you work it!