Monday, December 20, 2010

Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays

Tis the time of the Year to Wish Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays. It has been an amazing year and I am so happy to have You in my life. Lots has happened this year and I know that there are many posts to come in 2011, new adventures new experiences. I hope that everyone has a very very Merry Christmas and a Safe and Happy New Year.

I will continue to post in Jan.

Best wishes, and sending lots of love to my dearest over seas!!!!!!


Thursday, December 16, 2010

Mr. Robin Sharma is one of the influencial writers, I have read many of his books and find that the way he delivers his message really hits home for me. I wanted to share this list with you all. Given I am not there yet in doing them all myself but it is a great reminder that simpilicty in life is really powerful in life. Please enjoy! Rebecca I want to shift gears from leadership to a pure focus on crafting an exceptional life for this blog post. Ultimately, life goes by in a blink. And too many people live the same year 80 times. To avoid getting to the end and feeling flooded regret over a live half-lived, read (and then apply) these tips:

1. Exercise daily.
2. Get serious about gratitude.
3. See your work as a craft.
4. Expect the best and prepare for the worst.
5. Keep a journal.
6. Read “The Autobiography of Benjamin Franklin”.
7. Plan a schedule for your week.
8. Know the 5 highest priorities of your life.
9. Say no to distractions.
10. Drink a lot of water.
11. Improve your work every single day.
12. Get a mentor.
13. Hire a coach.
14. Get up at 5 am each day.
15. Eat less food.
16. Find more heroes.
17. Be a hero to someone.
18. Smile at strangers.
19. Be the most ethical person you know.
20. Don’t settle for anything less than excellence.
21. Savor life’s simplest pleasures.
22. Save 10% of your income each month.
23. Spend time at art galleries.
24. Walk in the woods.
25. Write thank you letters to those who’ve helped you.
26. Forgive those who’ve wronged you.
27. Remember that leadership is about influence and impact, not title and accolades.
28. Create unforgettable moments with those you love.
29. Have 5 great friends.
30. Become stunningly polite.
31. Unplug your TV.
32. Sell your TV.
33. Read daily.
34. Avoid the news.
35. Be content with what you have.
36. Pursue your dreams.
37. Be authentic.
38. Be passionate.
39. Say sorry when you know you should.
40. Never miss a moment to celebrate another.
41. Have a vision for your life.
42. Know your strengths.
43. Focus your mind on the good versus the lack.
44. Be patient.
45. Don’t give up.
46. Clean up your messes.
47. Use impeccable words.
48. Travel more.
49. Read “As You Think”.
50. Honor your parents.
51. Tip taxi drivers well.
52. Be a great teammate.
53. Give no energy to critics.
54. Spent time in the mountains.
55. Know your top 5 values.
56. Shift from being busy to achieving results.
57. Innovate and iterate.
58. Speak less. Listen more.
59. Be the best person you know.
60. Make your life matter.

Thursday, December 9, 2010

180 Degrees

Yes, My entire life has done a 180!

I am at my new job, its amazing! I really do love sales.

ummm yeah so I am seeing someone too, actually its not just dating either.. I am in,, all in... head over heels fallin in Love! yup I said it!!! He is an amazing compliment to my life. His name is Phil, and its only a matter of time till he is living here with me.. yah 180 Right! I knew in the first two weeks too, like ahhhhh helll,, this is for real, and I am loving it. I will have to get a pic of the two of us and post it here ;)

Monday, November 29, 2010

how far is too far?

So I have had a loved family member move on today, she was an amazing inspiration and great woman, at 102 she was still looking to get feisty and asked me every time I saw her, if there were any hot men outside and if I could bring her one in. I loved my great gram, and today she moved on, I am upset, of course, but I want to celebrate her life. I asked her advise on her 100th Birthday,

"Gram, Its beck, I want to know since your 100 this year and I am 25, what advise can you offer your great grandchild of with your 75 years experience on me?"
"you like to dance beck?"
"ya gram I love to dance!"
"well beck, you got a man?"
"no gram, why?"
"well ... get one.. and make sure that he can hold onto the tables, because you must always always dance on the tables!"

Best advise I ever got!

So the title of my post comes from my anger towards my extended family, people started posting on FACEBOOK this morning that gram had passes, FACEBOOK, for goodness sakes, gram has hardly had time to leave her body! So not only is this of horrible disrespect, that is how my sister found out that gram had passed. It disgusted me today to find this out about what I am supposed to be calling my family.

I am posting this here, because well, really only two of you read this anyhow, and I am sure since its all over the fricken Internet, you have heard by now, also neither of you knew gram, and well this is my place to vent which nobody knows about. :)

So have seriously been considering deleting my Facebook page, Its gone too far for people, this whole addiction to technology is too much. People don't even have face time with one another any longer, you go for dinner and its phone this and txt and tweet and status updates! where is our humanity going? seriously... out the freaking window. I smile at people while walking down the street, and it seems foreign to some people like I must be up to something because I am making eye contact.

Anyhow, if you find that one day you go to find me on FB and I am gone, its not because I have escaped, I may just be without a page. You can get me here or email me or call me.

Favorite quote for today "Friends are Gods way of apologizing for our families" Dr Wayne Dyer

Monday, November 1, 2010

blog posting and dinner!

Wow its been a couple days ( weeks ) ma bad! but I am inspiried tonight to voice a few things, I am sitting here eating my dinner and checking things out online, I have come across a couple of words online and they have prompted me to let you know where I am at.

So things have been good with me, I changed jobs and am working at a lighting and plumbing store selling products, its good I actually really like sales its fun, plus I am learning new things everyday which really is a huge part of me. I am high energy so I need the stimulus of learning all the time, otherwise I will just get board.

I have been doing things a bit differently in my world, I am not currently working with my life coach or trainer, My budget is allocated to other living expenses at the moment but I know that once I am making some coin and saving up a bit I will definitly have her back, but for now its good. I have been incorporating running and some work outs into my week. Also there are many things that I have learnt in the past 2 years with my life coach that I have been working on, I still read most mornings and journal and meditate. I have been processing the things that we talked about and the things I am implimenting in my daily routine.

I am currently reading Dr Wayne Dyer (love him) The Power of Intention, learning to co-create your world your way. So this is a great book, I was hearing a lot about intention and acting and speaking with intention... these words stuck in my head but I really didnt understand what that meant to do these things. I think that I have posted about it ealier, but this book is great, it really gets down and explains what it means. So one of the greatest things about intention is that everything is created twice, first as a thought... so I started to acknowledge and listen to the thoughts that were CONSTANTLY running through my head... they were just silly, I was worring about alllllll kinds of shit that had NOTHING to do with me. I was thinking about situations and problems that didnt even exist... what a waste of energy!

Not only was I thinking about usless shit, I was telling myself and surrounding myself with all kinds of horrible negative things. Hence it was the greatest thing to quit my job. Seriously..

Once I realized what my inner dialog was, I was able to know that if I could have these thoughts that I could just as easily have others... positive thoughts, thoughts of gratitude, love, kindness, creativity, beauty, abudance and expansion.

Being grateful for EVERYTHING, its all a gift, even if it sucks, we have all been there... something crappy has happened and at the time we are like SHIT>>> not cool.. but later sometimes even much later.. the thought comes to us ohhhhhhhhh I now see why the crappy thing happened.. and if it didn't I wouldn't be having this good thing happen now...

Being grateful for everything is just that. saying daily thanks for what the day has brought. you can thank God if that's what you want to call it, the universe, the source, the heavens, its all the same, its the higher energy that creates us with .. here it comes,, intention.... intention as explained in this book is like this... an apple seed is created with the intention to become a beautiful tree, which produces flowers, and more apples.. with more seeds full of intention to create more apples... the seed the tree nor the apple say... what do I do now? they don't say I'm not good enough to be the tree, the apple, the flower, it just knows.. we are all made from the same .... stuff,,, we are all created with intentions.

The way to tap into this is to do things like knowing that we are all connected, all of us, everything! what gets in the way is EGO.. ego says I am alone, I am different than you, I am not the same. YES YA ARE.. we are all souls and spirits... we are all part of a much much much --- larger abundant world.

I say thanks for things in my day that I would otherwise bitch about before, or never acknowledge... Like the rain or the wind, the sun coming through my window. the smile I received from the stranger. All of them are little blessings that should not go unacknowledged.

I am finding that with gratitude, I am able to practice the other things mentioned, Love, beauty, kindness, creativity, expansion, and abundance. actually is pretty easy once you learn gratitude, you then love everything because you know that its been brought to you because you are grateful for it, and then you find it beautiful, with that your creativity starts rolling, and when your on it like that your more likely to practice kindness to others, they cant piss you off your full of love beauty and creativity, with those ingredients brings expansion because you start to think outside the box, "wait I can do that, if I i don't know how now, I sure can learn how" constantly expand your limits.. then comes abundance... once you know you can learn and expand,, you also know that like your potential, everything in life is of abundance, like air... and space..

Light bulb... now its time to act on it... just reading about it, and thinking about it wont get it done, that the second creation,,, making it happen.... one step at a time if needed. I made a new rule in my life.. I must smile at EVERYONE I make eye contact with... funny how many people catch your eye. I smile all friggen day! whoop whoop

Nothing works unless you work it!

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Beautiful days

My life has really done a turn lately... it is amazing once you remove one negative thing from the pot how quickly you can gain back your confidence and power and move forward with a snowball effect.

Since I left my last job,, the Becky, the real one that Mag you grew up with, the ballsy one with an opinion.. yeah well she back.. she a lil mad that she missed so much but she back. welll..... I'm back I should say.

I am loving my new job and my new boss, I also love that since 99% of the people there don't really know me from before,, I can start again.. "dear universe thank you for this opportunity" I can press the reset button and people I work closely with will only know what I tell them about me, this time I will do it and am doing it differently. I am sharing what needs to be shared, I am making the connections but not telling everyone everything, I made that mistake in my last job and it was silly.

I am being very careful what and who I tell stuff too, I don't know people very well there so my guards are up a bit, I like this. The people I want to let close in I will invite but otherwise nope.
I realize that I am there to be friendly to my coworkers and customers but making friends and being friendly are very different.

I have been feeling so much better about myself and knowing that I can go so much further in the last couple of days, I know it will only grow stronger, and for this I am excited.

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

New day new way

I am very excited, today I start my NEW job in sales! I will be learning about lighting and plumbing fixtures! I know this is not very exciting to most but for me... to learn new things everyday is wicked.

.... I have been off work for about two weeks now and I am definitely ready to get back to it. I have been cleaning and reading tons during my time off. I have been reading this great book called _ Now Find your Strengths. Its great, you read all about these interviews that these guys did with 2 million people who are excelling in their jobs, then they took this information and created common threads... 34 patterns actually. So its based on the science that when we are born we have many strengths and talents, by the time we are 3 years old, the strongest thread have been developed and those are our strength they hold strong through our lives. Actually it turns out our brains get smaller as we get older .. also when we get smarter our brains shrink too. HUH

So once you get through the first 3 chapters of the book and learn the differences between Talents, Strengths, skill and knowledge you take this online test.. it takes about 40 min and it gives you a series of A and B questions with how you respond the exam tells you your top 5 strengths, then you can go ahead and continue reading the book to see what they mean.... It has been amazing to learn why it is I do some of the things I do....

Like for example as ironic as it is that I have pretty much always been disorganized ( which has always driven me crazy but I never did organize) is the opposite of my top strength.. which is called Strategic.. its that I actually have a natural talent to take disorganization, clutter and chaos and find many ways and solutions to organize it... hence why I have (for as long as I can remember sorted my coins.. and pens.. and odd things) So for the last couple of days since I have had the time I have been using that talent to actually organize my life.. it finally feels right in my house.

There are two others, once is Achiever.. which is basically that everyday starts at 0 for me.. and throughout the day I need to achieve things in order to feel good at the end of the day. otherwise (so true) I get really disappointed and down on myself.. this is great... and there is a catch.. which is also true,, that everyday I also feel that I have only accomplished about 75% of what I feel I can do because in my mind there is always more even if I have literally filled every min of my day I will still feel there is more...

then I have INPUT... this is the fact that I collect and keep things... things that interest me.. books, coins, pens, things, knowledge.. and I keep them... Its a great thing because with learning new things and reading books is one of my things to collect so I am on a constant hunt for new knowledge.. then you put achiever in there with it and it keeps me going to find new and get new.. then you throw Strategic in there and that's where I can drive myself nuts... to organize and sort all of these THINGS I constantly collect... oi

If you have read the book I am also WOO and empathy..

I would strongly suggest reading this book and doing the test!

let me know I would be interested to find out what others are!

Sunday, October 3, 2010

Sharpen the Saw, Plan ahead

So, I have been doing many things since my last post.... I am currently up North doing a little sharpening of the saw, it is very important that I do this since I will be starting my new job on the 12th, I have accepted and will be starting back in sales for a period of time. The best way to learn about something is to sell it! This is a great new opportunity for me and I am very excited. I have also been promoting my Photography, I want it to grow so I can have my pieces in the gallery spring, I need to get my planning ahead done while I am here, business plans, projections for both new opportunities the sales I want to be making over the next year in my new job as well as the projections for my photography sales... I haven't done this before but I know that what I was doing before needs to change, sooo I am making the change to organized...

Monday, September 27, 2010


Today I am again very grateful for the opportunities which have been brought to me! I made the choice to end some relationships and mend others and I am very thankful for how they have fallen away and fit back in, I had created a very messy situation and I am very very thankful for how it all came together.

I have learnt my lesson with this, I am changing, I will continue to change, I will continue to learn. This has been a huge lesson for me and I am going to take from these lessons and change from them.

Saturday, September 25, 2010

picking up the pieces

This is my blog, I have created this to be able to write out what needs to be said.

I have created some things in my life that I am not proud of right now. I have created false beliefs in others and myself. I have created a relationship with people that I do not want to be in. I have created a lot of pain for myself and others. I am so sorry.

I want to change, I can change. I want to create meaningful relationships with people and I do not want to hurt them. Today I had to end a relationship that I have been feeding into for a while now, I have gone back and forth with it a couple of times. I ended up making some bad decisions based on a false belief and now have to deal with the consequences. I have not been fair to this person in continuing to be with them now, when I do not want to step into the reality that is later. I had to end this today and they do not understand, they do not understand because I have been feeding into it and creating.

I am sorry.

I have a huge opportunity in my life right now to make some big changes for myself and my future, It has come to head that I have to change my ways because what I have been doing does not and will not continue to work if I want what I want.

I will not cry over this, I have some friendships to fade, some to mend. I am not proud of some of the things I have done, but what I need to do is not try to wallow in my sorrows and play the victim, I need have the strength to deal with the consequences and move forward in my life, and learn from where I have been.

Friday, September 24, 2010

Lots in the works!

So!!!! In the last couple of days, maybe a week things have been stirring up in my world, the change in my life has been coming for a while and I know I was afraid of what to do next, its amazing when you work under someone if you don't know who you are for sure or know that your amazing that person that your working for can have amazing power over you, the thing I am grateful for is, once you realize they don't have that power any longer how quickly things can change and where the courage, strength and confidence comes from knowing that you can.

I have stepped into the light, I gave my two weeks notice at my job and I am done at the end of the month. I am currently still looking for a job position that is right for me, I want to work in a design firm, I want to learn different aspects of design, commercial, retail, promotion design, I am also interested in things like fabric and textiles. In the past two weeks I have met all types of people, designers, architects, furniture designers, real estate agents, I have been interested in parts of what they all do.

I am in the works of designing my way. My way to incorporate all those amazing things that excite me into what I will be doing.

I have also been promoting my photography, this is something that REALLY excited about! I want to sell my work as custom canvas sizes. I want them to hang in high end homes, and be seen all over the place, I want to use them for promotions and advertising! I have had a couple of people inquire about them and am in the works of a couple of sales!!!

I went to and event last night and re-connected with a bunch of my network and relationships in the design world. I'm not going to say much more on this but the updates are coming!!

MMMMMWAH so grateful for this experience thank you Universe!

Monday, September 20, 2010

Changing one step at a time

This past weekend has been so great, so many amazing things have been happening. Its like once I decided that I have the permission to change and do better, it came flooding in. I am so thankful for having this experience and so very excited for whats coming!

This next two weeks will be big for me, it is like the end of my year and next year starts after my birthday. I need to take action today! I will not play small for the universe, I am bigger than that! Times up, today I grow the balls and take the big step to changing my life for the better, why wait!

Will keep you posted ;)

Friday, September 17, 2010

Great day!

Today I had such a good day, I had good food, good feelings, I accomplished so much just knowing that I am making the changes!!! I am so thank full for this experience and that I am going through it now!

Today's Dr Wayne Dyer quote is -
"without exception, begin every day of your life with an expression of gratitude. As you look in the mirror, say, "Thank You, God, for life, for my body, for my family and loved ones, for this day and for the opportunity to be of service. Thank You, Thank You, Thank You!""

Love it!

must be in the stars

I am so excited, I had one of the best life coach sessions last night, Next week we get to move forward!! YES For the last 6 months I have been coming to this very point in my life coach and then I would turn back, this time no... I say F*ck it,,, we is moving forward !!!! I want so much more out of life, and out of myself, I am willing to do whatever it takes to make the changes I need.

So today I am changing my posts a bit, I would like to make sure that what I am typing and thinking on my posts have positive and inspirational roots, because I want to change the thoughts to those of positive change and inspiration. No longer to dwell.

I am going to start with my big dreams, When Jade and I did this process the first time, she told me to think bigger than I ever had, think as if money was no object and that anything in the world was possible ( all true ) what would I really Really want... then imagine the details of these dreams...

I will have a part time condo in New York, something I could go to when I wanted to be there, I can already see the view out my window, I am overlooking a park.

I will have my photography and art displayed in my gallery, big pieces on the walls, brick and rough exposed beams, polished concrete floors, big windows.

I will be running my business, based on the principles of sustainable design, amazing clients.

I will be on TV and in magazines. I am leaving a lot of the details of this one up to the universe, there are so many possibilities to get here.

I art, designs and photography will seen by many.

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

wow,,, anger over.

So its like I have been pushing on a door my whole life,, push push, trying different ways, different styles, push push... guess what its a freaking pull door! I just need to pull the door open. There will be (as I suspected in a previous post) many changes to come.

I need to just man up and do the things I need to. Done, quit making excuses and distractions. Times up.

on a side note, I have been taking new dance classes, OMG love them, I started taking pole dance classes YES love love. Such hard work to be honest.

Monday, September 13, 2010


I have been twitching out A LOT!!.. And I am angry. And the things that are bugging me about other people (key to what is bugging me) is that people are not getting the simplest things. And they are expecting others to do the work to deal with their stuff. AHHHHHHH

Just be me.. I'm unconfortable. I'm unknown, I'm a mess, I'm disorganized

I am angry with myself, I am mad that I have let my life get here, I am mad that I have wasted 6 months on avoiding me. I am mad that I have all of this uncomfortable energy and I don't know what I am supposed to do with it.

Saturday, September 11, 2010

you really have to WANT it!

Sooo there will be some changes for me coming, big changes, but as I am learning today you really have to want it. I am sore from training, I am tired from taking on lots of over time work from Maison (the company I am currently working for) and I now need to work on my personal updates, blog, portfolio, photography pages, resume. I am searching in my spirit for the inspiration and energy to get these things done. What my first instinct to do would be, go home put my feet up and have a glass of wine, its not going to move me forward though, and I have promised myself to do that tomorrow. So for today..... keep my chin up, my pencil down and go. I can go home in 3hours.

Friday, September 10, 2010

inspiration, fear, uncomfortable, wasted energy

I last posted about limiting beliefs, what timing! I posted that I have a belief that I cannot commit, this is true. Why can't I commit, because I don't believe in myself that I will be able to do it. Self love.

This is what my journal says from last night. This is the list of things I need to do.

This is not task list that needs to be completed but these are things that will help me get to loving myself enough to know that I am capable of greatness.

-start saying no to you and YES to me.
-take more solitude time.
-sort out what it is that I really want, and really what is important to me, removing the emotion while doing this.
-ask for help
- meditate, practice prayer, put my trust in a higher power
- slow down
-surround myself with things and people that solidify the truth of self love. If I continue to surround myself with un-organization, uninspired people, indecisiveness, and low confidence then that's what I will become, and have become.
- allow me to just be me. As pointed out to me yesterday, I have taken the course and received a certificate to say I can be the Designer I am. I need to do the same for me.
- have faith that once I begin this journey to greatness that the universe will provide me with what and who I need at that time.
- trust that what come is there because I want it and that's why I have created it.
- I am the creator
- know that I am worth fighting for
- be the best I can be, and do everything in my power and awareness to create better

This is my list, not yours. This is my truths and I am going to strive to be in the 3% of greatness. I am scared Shitless, but I don't want to be in this false reality anymore.

A great mentor says, "Average people like being average because nobody bothers them"

I am putting this in my blog as a reminder for me, and to share with those who understand, if you want to tell me, don't be so hard on yourself, or you are an amazing person, don't worry. Don't. Please. I do not need to hear that.

This is only the beginning.

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Limiting Beliefs

The only limits we have are the ones we place on ourselfs.

When there is something that you think, I cannot do, I don't know how... these are core beliefs that we have placed on ourselfs. It isn't something we do intentionally, or that we may even be aware of, but the reality is once we are aware that we have these we can question what our beliefs are and get past them if we are willing.

I don't think I can commit to a realtionship...
I don't know how to let people in....
I don't know how to go in, and discover more about me....
I can't run...
I can't lift that....
I can't keep going...
I can't save money...

These are some of mine and some that I have already got past. The thing is we create everything twice, first in thought then in action, so if even at the base thoughts of our creations, we are doubting ourselfs, how on earth are we supposed to get to the action part if we are shutting ourselfs down before we even do.

I have been thinking about this... my big one that I realized yesterday was I was telling myself the top 3,

I I don't think I can commit to a relationship...
I don't know how to let people in....
I don't know how to go in, and discover more about me....

Once I wrote these down I started to ask... is this true, is this what I truley believe, am I able to influance and create the new thought. YES YES YES because we are the creators.

Of course I can commit to be in a relationship... I have before.. I am more aware now, the same things that happened before cannot happen again unless I let them. I am able to commit to other things, I have committed to myself for the last 2 years to get fit and healthy, I have committed and completed my schooling.

I don't know how to let people in, that's just silly, of course I can let people in. That's what rich relationships with friends and family is. I already have that, but the fact that I was telling myself that I didn't know how has put a brick wall between myself and those rich relationships because I PUT IT THERE.

I don't know how to go in, and discover more about me.... this isn't true.. nor is it serving me, I have done the worst thing, I have placed that same brick wall up for my self. How can you place a wall somewhere that doesn't exist. How do I not let myself in to myself... that's like how do I get in the car that I am already sitting in? Well you cant because your already there.

Look at where I am now - I have moved to Vancouver by myself, I have completed and excelled at my design schooling, I have acquired many skills in design and building, and am working at a company for 3 years now in design, with TWO design awards... and loosing 30 pounds, running a 10k and 5k race....

WHAT AM I HOLDING BACK FOR? If I achieved all of this in 5 years, without being at the level of awareness I am now... I ask myself truly, what am I capable of at this level of awareness!

Monday, September 6, 2010


So this long weekend has been a good one, I have been working on what I posted about last, Intention. What is the energy I am putting behind what I say and do and think. I had not been in contact with Chad for most of the summer, and I had gone on a couple of dates with other people. I came to the realization that these other people I had been meeting just were not doing it for me. Once you learn something its amazing because you cannot un-learn it. Chad and I have a unexplainable connection... its sick. right from the first time we talked and more so the first time we met.

So when I started to meet other people and this connection just was NOT there, I started to think about Chad again. Really looking at what I wanted. I started to talk to him again on the phone, and on Friday we met.. its taken me a bit to get there, I realized that if I am going to put ANY energy into a relationship with anyone, it will be with the person I really like and have this connection with. Its been an amazing weekend. I am so much more relaxed this time, as my good friends would say HOLLA, TRUST, SNAP!

It really does NOT matter what others have to say about what I do, or what I feel what they think of me .. I have to follow what I want. No exceptions.

Friday, September 3, 2010

Lesson one

So for the first time in two weeks I am actually up early-er-ish.... I am normally up at 5 or 5.30 and reading and doing all sorts of things. As I have talked about before I have been really tired the last while. I finally don't have a headache this morning either, I did get a neck and shoulder massage from a friend so that's part of it, I also changed my alarm clock on my phone to a new song, I found this one that seemed nice last night, bit of a hard rock type Pantera, Metallica maybe a little... well I'm AWAKE... it went off this morning, my gawd... I may or may not keep this, pro - it wakes me up con - little extreeeeeeem maybe.

So last night was life coach night,, of course I was a total mess again, I have been so busy this week and doing extra hours with photo shoots and a job isn't going as planned and the clients are coming home today and bla bla bla STRESS.. the reality is I don't have a stress management plan

We got right into it last night, I have been learning lots and attempting to apply these new habits to my life and for the most part there are some things that are making an impact but really I don't seem to be getting it.... I was interpreting the word Intention in the wrong way, I had the wrong paradigm as to what and why we have intention.

In my book it talks about your paradigms being like maps to a city.. you may have a great map of Chicago lots of detail and you really know it and can navigate perfectly... but if your in Dallas and your reading your Chicago map.... your going nowhere.

The interpretation of what and why we do things are our paradigms our maps I was interpreting Intention as make a plan and do it... get the book read the book make the notes DONE. Make the lunch the night before, have more time. done. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Yes I know shocking right, I also thought that was correct.

Jade explained Intention with the right words and the right description for me to understand clearer...

Intention - the meaning and energy behind something. The question behind Intention is what experience do you want to create?

For example why do am I getting up in the morning and writing my my blog? - cause it gets my thoughts out no. Because when I write out what I am thinking and share it, I connect with it better, and this makes me feel good, it releases stress and clears my thoughts. I also feel good knowing that by sharing my blog here, someone might read it and it will make a difference in their life.

We talked about using the right words to describe things and it really makes a difference in what words you use... Its the Second Agreement - Be Impeccable with your word - The Four Agreements Don Miguel Ruiz.

Thursday, September 2, 2010

slow down and breath

I have a pattern that I am working on breaking, I go really fast with everything... everything and it is not serving me. Yesterday while training Jade told me to slow down... like S L O W D O W N............. of course this was great, I got more out of the 20 ab reps in that moment than the last week of ab work. I was able to focus on what I was doing and really reap the benefits of the ab work. HELLO why would I not do that with EVERYTHING in my life... slow down and focus....

Professional athletes do what they do so well because they slow down during their practice and focus on every moment allowing their minds to connect to the actions. This practice allows for calm breathing and focused thoughts, so when in the middle of a race or game their thoughts are 100% clear and focused to make spit second decisions to succeed.

I was practicing this morning, with even just my body brushing before my shower and how I had my shower this morning. It really helped me relax for my day.

I think it really hit home yesterday with the ab exercise because I don't think I realized how much I needed to slooooooooooow down..

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

just do

Wow I missed yesterdays blog post, I had such a long day. Got up later, around 6.30 was at work by 8 and I had a work event last night so I got home at 8pm a full 12hours of work.. wow.. I had wanted to do laundry this morn but forget it, I slept from 9pm till 7am this morn.. but I have to say this is the first time in a while I feel like I have my energy back. This past couple of weeks, I got pretty lazy with my life coach stuff and pretty much everything in general and really I think its because I really just needed to rest up.

I am excited to have found out yesterday that I might be able to right my exam to be a Registered Interior Designer sooner than I had originally thought, that would be great. I am also excited its started to rain today, not weenie rain, big rain, this means fall is coming I LOVE fall, and it also means that I can get back into my books, September just feels like the right time to study!!

Anyhow gots to get back to work, long day again today and ending it with training!!!

Sunday, August 29, 2010


So as I mentioned yesterday, there has been a lot of realization for me and a lot more awareness in the past couple of months. All of this awareness and thinking has been gobbling up energy which is good because its energy that I am using to invest in myself. But for the past forever I have been using my energy to run all kinds of babble around in my head, needless to say I have been extremely sleepy this weekend. I have had tons of offers to go places and do stuff, but for the most part I have been declining and staying in this weekend.

Today's plans are pretty simple, well first my coffee and of course blog, I need to deposit my paycheck and purchase my groceries, do all my food prep for the week, read my book and I am guessing have a nap. Seems like a great day to me!

I am also thinking that all of this sleeping and re-energizing is in preparation for what the universe is bringing me next, I have a feeling that all at once my career and my personal life and relationships are going to get very busy and there will be some changes and big projects. For work this is what happens in September, the phones all start ringing around the 1st because people realize its 4 months till Christmas and if their aunt Layla is coming they need to renovate their kitchen baths and guest bedrooms. Also for work we are 4 weeks out from the Georgies, these are big awards in the Renovation business, and they take a LOT of work to prepare.

In personal, I know that starting Tuesday I am upping my fitness to twice a week with one life coaching on Thursdays, this is great, I have been loosing lots of weight still and trimming up but its like we are at the last 10- 15 pounds and its going to have to take extra effort to get there. I have also been feeling that there are going to be big changes in me, I have been working on all of my life coach stuff and I really feel that I have been cocooning or resting up for big changes. I can feel it in my body.

Since my birthday is in September I always feel it is where my year begins. So I am going to celebrate today, rest up, and say bring on September, bring on the changes.

Saturday, August 28, 2010

New updates and posts coming

So I have neglected this for quite some time, but I really feel that this revisit to my blog will stick. I have some time in the mornings now since my new phone delivers my emails directly to me all day long I no longer need to get up in the morning and check to see whats in my inbox, in fact I can see all my emails, facebook and tweets before I open both eyes. Its been a bit of a daily habit to get up in the morning and check emails while I enjoy my coffee but now I can update my blog!!

I am also going to start using this as more of a journal, I am pretty sure that Magda is the only one who reads it anyhow so really whatever I put in here is only for me.

This summer / year has been an interesting one, amazing no doubt.. there has just been lots happening in my life. I have still been doing lots of life coaching and training, my life coaching has been back and forth, I have progressed leaps and bounds this summer but have still been falling back every now and then. I have a strong sense that those fall backs are done, this past couple of weeks have been really powerful for me in my realization and awareness. I have been practicing being present, I had no idea before what this feeling could be since I don't believe I had ever been fully present before. I had thought that I was, and even now I am sure there is even more to learn about being present and taking charge of the NOW.

I have been discovering a lot about myself and who I am and what I truly believe in. I have been reading 7 Habits for highly Effective People - Steven Covey for the second time, I read it the first time last year, at that time I was still going at everything so fast and I only applied and absorbed the information that I wanted to and applied it to work, funny though because it says right on the front of the book powerful lessons in personal change.

Since I have started to read it for the second time there is so much in the book that I never before got, and it is really opening my eyes as to what I have been doing my whole life and how I can change so many things in how is see and do everything. In fact for the most part it has NOTHING to do with work, its all about being present and effective with your self.

Its been these last two books, this one and the previous The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle that have hit me hard this summer, I wasn't aware before how much energy I had been using on mindless thoughts and riff raf in my head. I have always run things around in my head a hundred times and over thought most situations, lots of energy spent on things that haven't even happened or things that ever will, I was wasting my energy on things that I had no reason to be worrying about or had any control over.

So needless to say in the past couple of weeks with this new information I have been thinking lots about the things that should be in my life, now the step is to apply, and do. This is where my blog / journal comes in. Its important for me to keep writing and journals to keep all of this new active in my life. Today I am also going to begin writing my personal mission statement, its been on my mind lots this week and well today is the day it comes out.

Today's Quote from my book - "The unique human capacities of self-awareness, imagination, and conscience enable us to examine first creations and make it possible for us to take charge of our own first creation, to write our own script. Put another way, Habit 1 says, "You are the creator" Habit 2 is the first creation."

Nothing works unless you work it.

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

ahhh I am sorry!!

Okay so I am sorry.. I got caught up in everything and quit posting... BUT.. dont fear I am back.

Things are going well - I am currently making some yummy yummy soup listening to the Canada VS Russia game on tv.. now I am not a huge hockey fan but I am caught up in it being that it is in this city and the downtown is FULL of people cheering and going nuts.

I have been working on my life coach and training still, I have switched to training twice a week, and then every other week we do life coach. There has definitly been some tough times this year already with letting go of old beliefs and making room for new.

I did take a trip to Tofino for the weekend, that was a great - just time away to think and walk the beaches

then off to LA - that was the first trip I have been on that I have not gone to see my parents in 7 years.. Dont get me wrong I LOVE my parents but being in LA walking the streets by myself, taking pictures was the best holiday I have had in a long time.. I packed so much into each day and I was SOOO engergized from everything, I should have been really tired everynight but I just wanted keep going.

The first evening we went to a Edmonton VS LA hockey game -(I know lots of hockey-- weird) that was fun, then friday morning I toured up to the Walt Disney Concert Hall - Designed by Frank O' Gerhy very beautiful piece of architecture!! meandered inside and after about and hour of self touring one of the guides asked me if i had paid to be there and advised me to sign in and pay .. since i was pretty much done... i calmly walked passed the security and left... haha suckers!

I went back to the hotel and met with Samatha (we were traveling together and shared a room she had to work tho) and I took off to Santa Monica with two of Sams co -workers, Tanis and Susan. we had a great day I LOVE SANTA MONICA!! the beach the pier the colors everything.

MMm I am going to eat dinner and contiue this in a bit.. i am sure its getting long to read anyhow.